Focus On The Proof

I often questioned/doubted my existence on this earth, my path and the point of it all. 

A few months ago, I learned that there is a term for that feeling, they call it an existential crisis. 

It’s basically a moment of deep reflection where you question the reason behind everything including your own life. 

Getting lost in this feeling can lead to depression. I struggled with depression for a long time and this was one of the reasons. 

I wanted to know everything about everything without realizing that there are certain answers that are not meant for me to hold. 

Knowing everything about everything is God’s business and accepting this provides us with a deep sense of peace. 

But it’s normal to have tons of questions. 

“Why is this happening?” 

“Why did this fail?”

“How was that allowed?”

“How could this ever succeed?” 

“Is this what I’m supposed to be doing?” 

Over time, I have painfully learned, that having questions does not mean that I should make an assumption and lead myself into disappointment or discouragement. 

Having questions is simply part of the human experience. 

If one of our dear family members gets sick, we witness their suffering, and we question, “Why is this happening to them?” 

Trying to fill in that answer for ourselves will drive us insane. 

So, while we may not know the answer for that, we have other things surrounding us, that can satisfy that desire to know, if we dare to look in the midst of our questions. 

• The love in your heart for this person
• The memories of joy connected to this person
• The gratitude for the time spent with this person

All of the above is proof of goodness. 

Proof that your current hardship contains some goodness. 

Proof that there’s some light in the dark season. 

I often questioned my path in life and doubted the outcome of my future. It was a deep, almost completely unconscious fear. 

Through my actions, it was clear that I was unsure of myself BUT THEN I realized, “Wait a minute, I may not have the answer to my question but I have some proof.” 

This was my main question/doubt : 

“I have certain talents but everything that I am doing is failing. Maybe this is not the path for my life. Why do I keep failing?” 

Each failure I experienced increase my doubt and my amount of questions. 

I was working to be approved of my talent and working from a place of doubt because I had failed before. 

Then, a lightbulb when off in my mind. 

My talent is the proof! 

Proof that the path that I am on is indeed the correct path. 

Failure became my "proof" and it said, "Your talent is trash. Your future is trash." 

But I learned, failure does not eradicate my talent or my worth. 

Someones disapproval of me does not mean that I am worthless. 

So, instead of working from a place of seeking approval, I started to work from a place of already being approved. 

What’s my point here? 

You are alive because you have a grand purpose my friend and the proof is in your heart beat. 

The next time you doubt why you’re even here, focus on the proof, place your hand on your heart and feel the evidence. 

You may not know the answers right now. 

The how, the why or the when but your very life is proof that you are meant to be here. 

The show isn’t over my friend. 

You are alive and God has great plans for your future. 

I don’t know the exact details of the plan but I have proof and the proof is your existence. 

So begin to walk this earth as someone who is already approved and get to work.

Focus on the proof!